Instead of Being Sad, I Got Creative: Post #14

I have been sad all day today, for undisclosed reasons. Mixed with the fact that I was sad earlier this week and my birthday is Friday, my emotions have been very much up and down. So, instead of mopping around the house in sweatpants and a hoodie. I decided to put on real pants, a good hoodie, and went for a drive. I went to my favorite thinking place, the 4th spot in the back left corner behind the J.C Penny. Never once has the spot ever been taken, I think people know it’s mine. I sat in my car for quite some time thinking about life, mistakes, goals, and aspirations as one does in the parking lot of J. C. Penny. This thinking was short lived because while in deep thought, I feel asleep. It was a wonderful slumber until I was awoken by a loud sound coming from my speaker. An 818 number had called me, could be a friend, 818 is LA. I answer the call in hopes a friend some how felt my pain. No, it was just some person from the Consensus trying to make sure I filled out their form, what form? My hopes shattered by the all famous question: “Hi my name is Tom, do you have a second to talk?”  There was no more hope, so I had to create my own. I began by expressing my pain in a t-shirt. I designed the t-shirt while listening to the saddest music on the planet, a little Frank Ocean and some lofi. In matter of moments I had went to the Internet, to Photoshop, to a fully designed t-shirt, pure emotion on an article of clothing, it was perfect. However, my sorrows had yet to cease, so I had to continue my quest to bring me back to serenity.

I decided to drive further up the road, hoping to find some answers to my problem. No answers however can be found on an empty street. Yet, the freeway seemed to have more answer than most other options. A sharp left and I was going 70 on the 2 freeway. A slight change in directions can absolutely change your life. I ended going up to a residential neighbor on a large hill. A hill that I had always wanted to go up to but never had before. It is a giant hill that pretty much lays dormant in the loud outskirts of LA. Yet this hill had something other hills didn’t, peace. The hill that overlooked downtown LA gave me hope that even in a cloudy sad day, there is a small hill in which you can lean on.

I was sad, so I design T-shirt, took some photos of downtown Los Angeles and listened to Frank Ocean. This story is not special, I was sad and I know many of you are as well. Just remember that large hills exist and they are perfect to lean on.

My images fill in the gaps of my journey, enjoy!